We've been in our new house since the 12th. I guess that's over 2 weeks now. It's crazy... I just moved the last few things from the old house to the new one yesterday. We have lots of stuff to get rid of. Thankfully there's a nice storage shed out back, but it's just about full now. We'll have to go through some stuff and get rid of a bunch I guess.
This long weekend we painted most of the master bedroom (a light coffee-brown) and most of the master bathroom (sage gray). All that's left is for me and my superior arm span (superior to Jess' span) to cut-in at the corner between the wall and the high ceilings at the center of the house.
Something needs to give. We're both struggling despite our world of blessings. For Jess it's having to work at a desk at the courthouse; a place where everyone is mad and trying to win an argument. She returns home and has time to do little else but stand in the kitchen for a bit. Maybe I need to help her out like I did when we first got married :). Com'on Adam, you're being a lame husband.
For me it's more about a lack of motivation: not getting into scripture study, not working on games, not writing/recording music. I'm struggling to fix the problem, which is that all of my hobbies involve sitting at a computer, however, at work I sit at a computer. I don't want to go home and work on personal hobbies ALSO in front of a computer.
Maybe I need to give up $14/hr of surfing the web for something that keeps my active and fuels my creative outlet more? I probably also need to be open to making it possible for us to have kids in a few years. It seems like I might eventually cap out an hourly wage of $16, if I stick around here for a few years. I probably need something more like $20/hr to barely survive. That's a bunch of money I won't see around here any time soon...
At the same time, I realize that the Lord is divine. He knows what's to come much better than I do. Maybe we'll get another break in some form. Maybe He'll let me in on what's best for us so I can get behind it. Maybe He already has, but I can't shake feeling torn. This job has actually been such a blessing... and it would continue if I could get back into studying for hours a day again... and cranking out game sprites for the rest of the hours a day.
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